Seek & See

The 1st conclusion is : Everything will not get better.
Am I worth to get something better?I'm tired with the lessons,the assignments,and every demands that everyone does to me.I'm tired with every ppl who expect me to be what-they-want-to-be.Dear mom and dad,I can honestly say that I'm trying to be ur best one.But deeply sorry if I'm not.Dear teachers,so sorry for becoming a very bad student.Dear friends,so sorry If hurt you.But.....can we just remember one thing?Nobody's Perfect.So sorry for telling you all that I can't be ur perfect child,student,and friend.Never.
The 2nd conclusion is : I'm not a kind girl.Why?
For one and many reasons which-I-can-not-tell ,I can hurt you,anytime.Maybe It's kind of an early warning for everyone : I'm hypocrite.I'm not as good as you thought.I might do backstabbing at ur back.I might give you a fake smile and show my fake kindness.So,don't ever blame me if someday you find me no good.It's free whether you want to be my friends or haters.Life is so mean,isn't it?

At least I just wanna say....thanks for everything.All the great or the bad moments will never be forgotten.I will always remember all of those.LOL.

hug and kiss,
ayusuwar :* {}